I have no idea what I’m about to write. But since I use this space to vent and to express my feelings openly, I decided to let my mind go and write whatever comes. That’s what happened when I wrote the title. Now, that I had the need to explain myself, I’ll just let it go.
it’s simply amazing how a couple of months can change you and how much you can grow. Over that last course, I had a close family member who was subjected to an open heart surgery. It was so scary that just remembering what I felt, I start shaking. But he is fine now, thank God. THANK GOD. These moments I know that the God that I believe is always there for me. I will not discuss religion on this post. But know this, I believe in a God. I respect and admire all religions. I have my criticism towards somethings but overall, I respect all beliefs system. Not only do I respect it, but I find it immensely necessary.
I also believe in the human soul. I believe we are born with some kind of energy that flows through our body. When we are a fresh-in-this-world being, the energy is basically consisted on the friction of blood that flows through our body and our basic species needs. When we grow older and start to understand our feelings( not completely, being young we have no understanding of why we feel, we just feel) our soul is constructed based on our feelings. Our soul always changes. It depends on what we feel and how we deal with these feelings.
Disclaimer: That’s just how I view the human soul in a faith-based point of view. As a future psychologist, I can’t mention soul when with a client. My views need to be kept to myself so that the main focus would be on the client’s view. If I need to share these views and analyse it, I’ll find my own therapist.
Music moves my soul as well. It moves my feelings and affect directly on how my day evolves. If I’m feeling sad and I want to reflect upon that, Sad music is played. And that logic goes on. Music is like a basic need for me. A phylogenetic need. Instead of being ontogenetic or cultural. I need music to survive. Music has always been present in our evolutionary history. One day i’ll be able to study such phenomenal and maybe proof scientifically that music is indeed phylogenetic.
I love fairy tails. I also believe that they don’t exist. Not in the way that we see in movies or books. They exist in a human-based way. I utilise the fantasy world as a distraction. Sometimes, I get way too excited about it, But it’s because I live such a stressful way of life( Traffic, job/internship, arguments, school work) that I need something to shut my mind off completely from reality and focus on something non-real for two hours. It’s healthy for me. I understand that sometimes I let it go to my head more than needed. But liking these things has nothing to do with a “resistance” of growing up. I like being a grown up. I love being able to do my own things. Whenever I want. Of course, in a responsible way. Because being an adult is being responsible as well.
Some events that happened in my life over the course of these couple of months( as discussed earlier on this post) I came to understand certain things. One, and the most important is that we can like the things we own and we can like the things we buy, but it’s not the most important thing in your life. Have been stolen made me come to peace with that thought. I was so thankful that it wasn’t an armed robbery that I completely forgot what was on my backpack. I was upset at first, I worked hard to own the things on it, but I can work just as hard to buy it again. We get so attached to material things that we forget to focus on what’s really important. Human relations and love. Life is too short to worry about what we consume( I’m sorry if i’m getting all “fight club”) And although many of us reflect on this, we sometimes don’t give the importance needed.
Love is not perfect. Something that fits in perfectly. The name of that Is Lego. Love needs to be worked on. Love is being happy and sad, hurt and healed. To work on that we need to talk. I’m not talking only about a romantic/sexual relationship. I’m talking about friendship and family as well. Once we really understand what love is, we can work on it and make it last.
Life is too short to bicker about small things and letting that evolve into something grater than it really is. Communication is the real heart of all relationships and listening is the fundamental key to make any connection last.
I think I wrote enough. I feel a little bit lighter. I’ll end it with my favourite Harry Potter quote: “Sometimes in life, we need to choose between what is right and what is easy”.
THIS IS SO FUCKING IMPORTANT I WANT TO PUT IT ON A BILLBOARD
People understand when your liver or kidneys don’t work. They accept lung and heart problems as real medical problems.
Your brain is an organ… just like your colon or or pancreas.
"The brain can get sick, too."